hi, this is painter(artpainter44)with something i want to share. many of ypu probably know this anyway, but i just realized the truth of it in my life. i was in the hospital in 1979 about
to be released after my 2nd bowel resection when i caught a virus which slowed my release by over a week. i didn't think about
that again for years. by 1981, i noticed that i was getting flu-like symptoms about
every two months and they would last 2-4 days. it didn't take long for the symptoms to increase in frequency and severity;i could no longer play tennis, run, work out like i had been doing without becoming quite symptomatic, ill the next day;then it took only about
an hour after exercise to get sick....my doctor had no idea what it was and tended to blow it off. fortunately i sought the help of an allergist who just happened to have a friend working in research with a new syndrome dubbed the "yuppie flu". luckily, this doctor agreed to see me in denver. this was 1990. after a full day of testing, ruling out everything else, i was told i had cfs. i started fighting it all over again. i had continued to exercise even though it made me so ill i had to spend two or three days in bed afterwards. not too bright, huh.
i was looking at the titles of posts earlier today and noticed the words "fighting cfs", which made me realize something i think i'd known all along;I can't fight cfs..it wins every time, stacked deck.(i am still ...after 27 yrs. ...having to learn to live with it & listen to my body). live with it, don't waste my energy trying to "fight".
i still have it, of course;my whole liife has changed because of it & the crohns& agoraphobia, etc.but i doubt i'd be painting as much ...& i know i wouldn't be here at hw with you wonderful folks."not fighting" is not "giving up";just the opposite;it's going on with your life thought in a different way...just a change of course..a different path;i am not running things;none of us has control over anything but our own reactions& responses...& it's wonderful that we can choose how we want to respond. i am lucky. and grateful. thank you all. painter.