Yesterday, while bored at work, I did some searching on this website. I found a post that my wife made almost over 3 years ago about
CFS. She was diagnosed with this 3 years ago, however I feel, and she feel's it was a mis-diagnosis. She's better now, minue sinus issue which she's having surgery for here in December.
My point in writing this is, back then... I use to tell her (my girlfriend at the time) that her fatigue and problems where in her head. That she just needs to pull herself together and put her mind to it. She went through serious depression and other health issue, that I don't even remember, until she told me. I never paid attention to her, when all she needed was someone to listen and talk to. She didn't spend much time on forums, so she kept most of this to herself. This brought tears to my eyes as I read her post, because I remember her telling me about her diagnosis, and pushing it off like it was something in her head. I use to joke with her, saying that when we marry, her insurance bills are going to kill us. I use to tell her, that for every 20 doctor visits she has, I have 1. I never knew what this felt like, until I was on the other side.
So... is this bad karma? Am I being shown what it's like when people get sick? Now I'm the one being told that it's in my head (Not from my wife, because she understands) but from friends and family.
I'm qurious to know how other feel about this. How did you look at other who were sick? Did you laugh at them? Avoid them like they're a homeless person in a bad part of town? Did you look at them and say "God... I'm so glad that's not me"?
I cannot say this now, because I'm not better, but I will tell you this when I'm better...... Being sick has changed my life. It has made me love and respect my wife more. It has made me a greater person, because I feel now what others have talked about for so long. My problem is so small, and can be fixed, however others with MS, Lupus, CFS, Lyme, and many other illnesses that cannot be fixed buy a drug.... my heart goes out to them.