Posted 4/4/2007 6:42 AM (GMT -8)
i been reading through everything on the forum trying to find a place where i fit in.
I'm a 22 year old female suffering.....
My GP is convinced i have CFS, my immunologist keeps brushing me off onto other specialist, i am now waiting to see a Neurologist.
I have been suffering increasingly for about 2 1\2 - 3 years.
I have daily headaches, with quite often turn into migraine, i have god awful Fatigue, nausea, body aches and pain, muscle weakness, dizzy spells, faintness, can sleep for days.................. and depression as a result of this.
I feel that although everyone around me supports me as much as they can, and say they understand what i am going through, i feel that no one does.
I did have a good friend who i lent on in times like this, i spoke to her almost every day, she always had a way of turning my bad days around, She had Cardiomyopathy, and unfortunately had a heart attack passed away unexpectedly late last year. I haven't spoken to anyone since, and just feel so alone at the moment.
I just feel like a complete idiot for writing all this, i know there are people worse off then me, but at the moment, i just don't know how i'm going to cope.
I can't even write a simple diary entry without bursting into tears and getting hysterical, angry, upset, sometimes i don't even know the words for how i feel.
My hands are shaking as i'm trying to type this.
And just as quickly as the tears start, i now feel like an idiot for typing all this, and feel like i'm attention seeking.
I'm just so confused, frustrated, does anyone else feel like this? Or should i be checking myself into some sort of Mental Hospital?