Yes, I keep a journal, but not for my Dr or anyone, just as a release valve. Funny, but I just posted something from my journal here in this forum, fwiw. A bunch more is in my blog, but it's been down a bit this evening. Please mosey over to my latest post (after 6 months of silence here, at least!).
As for the DR's & others not 'getting it' and looking for the 'pill seeker' blame the legislators & the FDA -- they're the ones who've made it a crime to prescribe certain drugs 'in excess'. We need a legislator to craft a law that would not lump all pain meds users into one kettle of fish. But yes, it does drive me crazy (well, it used to, I don't even bother trying to explain my pain, I just say 'oh it's better than usual, maybe a 5 today' and even if they press I stare at them like I'm about
to pass out (defocused gaze helps do that ;} ) and they move on to the next thing.
But I now get my care from the VA, and I have to say that so far, I've not had ANY trouble getting what I need. In fact, they wanted me to start oxycontin but I told them I'm holding off on that till absolutely necessary... They keep in my tramadol and I buy my own Cymbalta (in Canada for $154 for 3 months, when Walmart wants $250 for 1 month!) as the VA doesn't supply it yet.
But I digress...I've always felt that journalling, unlike a diary, should be not just a recitation of events & details, but reflection on the meaning and meaninfulness of them. It is funny too, to go back and look at something I wrote 25 years ago-- wow, scarey to think of how I used to think LOL.
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