Posted 1/31/2008 2:01 AM (GMT -6)
I'm awed right now! I live in Wisconsin, lived with CPS/MPS/FM and many other things all my life plus, 21 surgeries....pain has always been a part of my life, then about 14 years ago, I ruptured 2 more disks and was diag. with Acute CPS, etc. and I had to closed down my business a stop working, drs. orders! I went through pain management, tried everything and wasn't given anything, I had to use a cane to walk!
We moved alot because of HB's work and landed near Madison, by now I was becoming more and more bed ridden until I went to the Pain Center in Madison! After trying different meds. they finally found that Oxy was for me! This was the first time in my whole life I didn't have pain, plus I was given BT meds. The doses were 20mg, 3X's daily and BT was Morphine tabs, 10mg. Now this is about 12 yrs ago and nothing new to many, but I had my life back!
But, as we moved, no matter how many hoops we jumped through, it was getting impossible to find any dr. to help...I was called everyname in the book, it was all in my head...it was awful! After many years of no pain relief, making endless trips to the ER, once again we found a dr.who would help!
The dose was lower, but I was grateful....then 4 years ago we had to move again....and the hell began again! I'm med. sensitive and we wasted so much money because everything but what I had taken that worked made me sick....I was even hospitalized from allergic reactions and internal bleeding! But they refused me anykind of narc. I was now labled as a "pill seeker", in a wheelchair. Finally,last year when they found lung masses near my heart and broken ribs I was given Hydrocodone 5 mg, 1 tab every six hours....now I have complications from that
I just got out of hospital again, with masses again and possible cancer, sending me home with Oxy, 30mg's, 3X's a day, IR Oxy, 5mg's for BT pain only 4 a day and Lyrica, 75mg, twice daily...
Why I'm in awe is that I'm still labeled a druggy, even though now it's OK to have the meds. because now the cancer card is out....and I look at the doses your drs. have helped you with so you could continue working, etc......why did they steal my life and happiness, is it me? Are my doses high? NO!
Someone please explain this one to me....I'm confused
Sorry for the rant, help, anyone!