Posted 2/5/2008 9:50 PM (GMT -6)

After 20 some years plus as a paralegal, I had to retire due to my chrons disease. My gastro who does not believe in people retiring, infact I was his 2nd patient he ever put into medical retirement. He told me to apply for SSD and he would do whatever needed to help me get it. I applied and was approved within the 6 month time frame. I had so many problems resulting from the cd that by tryinh to work I just ended up making myself sicker. My CP is another issue thats taken on it own twist in my life. I surely would have never thought this would happen to me. I was someone that went 500mph all the time. I am very thankful that I have gone and done and seen the things I have before becoming so ill.

I too am an animal lover. I currently am the momma to an 11 yrs old golden retriever who strayed to my front door in 2000. I have a cat that was a stray and she is my upstairs cat. We are also parents to a 1yr old Britney Spaniel who is a rascal. He is awful. He has chewed the corners off of my new wide baseboards, he ate my patio chairs, he chewed hubby's cell phone & remote oh the list goes on. He is sneaky and a little thief to say the least. But one look at me with those yellow eyes I am done and he knows it. My husband keeps talking about how smart he is if we could just channel it in the right direction.

My boys are very comforting to me. Even the little Sneaky one lays down by me when I don't feel good. Susie


Posted 2/6/2008 12:57 AM (GMT -6)
Your Beta plays well with others???
Yes, they are fine with other fish, and it's actually ony the males that need to be apart! I think you can have a bunch of females in 1 tank. Space is the only really issue. I try to keep all of our tanks understocked to reduce territorial nipping.

Labs are AWESOME dogs!! It was a hard choice with the Husky... I was either getting s black lab or the Husky.. I think it would be really cool to have 2 labs. but the Husky just melts my heart!! We had a Black Lab, she was the sweetest coolest dog anyone could ever want! 2 years ago (January 14th or 15th I think) we woke on a Saturday (maybe Sunday) to what looked like a lab with a belly ache, she was just lying there looking up at us not eating. We honestly thought it was just a belly ache, we called up the vet, thinking maybe she got into some bad food and she needed charcoal or something for her belly ache. The vet gave us an emergency visit... She was doing her exam, and felt something odd in her belly area. She wanted to do some xrays, so we said sure, ok. She thought that she might have been impacted (constipated) and some had accumulated. Well the xray showed a massive tumor, about the size of a melon. Apparently the tumor had ruptured over night and Belle had turned anemic. This type tumor is almost always fatal, and she gave her about 5% chance of living if we did the surgery. I guess it would be a slow painful death if the surgery didn't work. We were faced with the decision to either have her put down then and there, take her home to say our good bye and have her put down at a later time (she was suffering by this time and in pain) or to have the surgery which the doctor really felt was just going to prolong her death. We sat on the floor of the vet office with Belle and talked it over (my wife, her sister and I) and asked Belle, you could see it in her eyes... And she was letting out these heart wrenching sighs! We ended up having her put down then. We must have sat on the floor with her for a good hour and a half just holding her... So what we thought was just a belly ache visit turned out to be one of the most challenging day of our lives. We wanted so bad to do 1 of the other options... Even if the surgery was $5,000 and we thought it would help, the wouldn't have been any hesitation! Even to this day I cry whenever I think about her (like now). My wife blames herself for the rupture, because she gave her a bath the day before, and she feels that's how the tumor ruptured. I think it was just something that happened. For the last few months of her life I was home recovering from a hernia surgery, and she was with me all the time, which was unusual for her. She liked to sleep upstairs in the own bed, but I think she knew and just wanted to spend more time with us. about 6 months later my wife couldn't take the void left by Belle, so she got Hannah the Yellow Lab in the picture. She helped us get over some of the heartache, but I still think she was taken from us to early, she was to turn 11 on January 18th the year she died. Now that I've probably depressed everyone....

We have a whole house full of animals, everyone calls it the Zoo. Neither one of us can go to the shelter!! Every time we did just to *look* we came home with either a pup or a kitten.. The Husky mix is a shelter dog, I also have a Rott who's from the shelter and another cat (I'm not really a cat person, but my wife loves them). Strays and shelter animals always seem to be better, like they are more greatful or something

My mother suffers from chrons, I really feel for you on that. I watched her suffer pretty much my whole life! They treated her with this or that, and the meds always made her sicker, A few years ago she went to the Cleveland Clinic and had the bad part removed (I honestly don't know much of what they did), and she was supposed to have a colostomy bag temporarily. I guess she's had some complications and she has to have the bag for life, but she feels better. I'm not sure if it's worth it to her or not, I feel like it's not really something she wold want to talk about.
Posted 2/6/2008 4:52 PM (GMT -6)
Oh, how horribly sad for you and Belle.

Dogs' lives are short, too short, but we know that going in. You know the pain is coming, you're going to lose a dog/pet/friend, and there is going to be great anguish, so you live fully in the moment with her/him, never fail to share the joy or delight in their innocence, because we can't support the illusion that a dog can be your life-long companion. There is kind of a beauty in the hard honesty of that, in accepting and giving love while always aware that it comes with an unbearable price. Maybe loving dogs/animals is a way we do penance for all the other illusions we allow ourselves and for the mistakes we make because of those illusions.

Knowing a little bit more about you, and your wife's love of animals, maybe there is some kind of work you can do with animals...not breeding and adding to the pet population, but a rescue shelter...I don't know, my mind is turning in circles, but it may strike upon something that just fits.

As I am sure you know, too many dogs/pets are abused and abandoned -- one is to many-- but somehow your and your wife's love of animals can make a difference. You two can be heros who walk among us but are never recognized.
Mochiah/a.k.a. Sue
cervical fusion 2006, with great result
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005, I have continued pain 
MEDS:  Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and Parafon Forte
To handle yourself, use your handle others, use your heart
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.

Posted 2/7/2008 12:36 AM (GMT -6)
Great response! Have you ever read a response that just hit the right place? A post that really needs no follow up?
Posted 2/7/2008 12:47 AM (GMT -6)
Then share it with your wife....and remember Belle!
Mochiah/a.k.a. Sue
cervical fusion 2006
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005
MEDS:  Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and baclofen
To handle yourself, use your handle others, use your heart
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.

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