Just need to be sure of things before I make a move which will probably be permanant.......
I wrote a few weeks ago, but I wasn't ready to do anything at that time. I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I've decided that SOMETHING has to be done. I just want to be sure that I know what I'm doing before doing it!
Once again, this is the situation....
My husband has chronic pain from stenosis and a ruptured disc. He also has osteoarthritis. He's prescribed 3 - 15 mg. tabs of oxycodone daily and 3 - 15 mg. tabs of methadone daily. He takes 6 - 15 mg. tabs of oxycodone the first two weeks of each month daily and no methadone. He takes methadone and no oxycodone (because he's all out) the second two weeks of each month. He tells me he does this because he doesn't like the methadone...it makes him feel like a "couch potato." He sometimes "snorts" his oxycodone, but tells me he doesn't do this very often. By the end of the day, after taking 6 - 15 mg. tabs of oxycodone, he can't keep his eyes open, and if he does, he walks around with little slits for eyes...eyelids only half open. He's up ALL night, EVERY night. When I go down to check on him, sometimes he's almost face first on the coffee table, or else he's nodding, or else he's standing and swaying back and forth talking to himself. He naps for maybe two hours during the night. I have no idea how he works all day, every day on such a small amount of sleep. When I get up at 5:00 a.m., he's STILL watching t.v. I sit down to have coffee with him. He's still nodding and falling asleep.....sometimes in the middle of a sentence. Tells me it's cause he hasn't slept all night. Around 6:00 a.m. he goes upstairs and sleeps for an hour or two. That's it for sleep. I also know he has sometimes traded some of his methadone with our son for some of our son's oxycontin during the end of a month when he's all out of oxycodone.
My husband tells me he's not doing anything wrong, and that the reason he nods at night and falls asleep is because sometimes he takes an extra pill when he's having a bad pain day. He's already taking 6 - 15 mg. tabs of oxycodone daily. He also tells me taking his meds this way is what works for him. His doctor, of course, is unaware of how he's taking his meds. My husband also tells me it's better that he takes his pills this way, because he's actually taking a smaller amount of pills each month, as he still has half of the methadone left than he would if he was taking his meds as prescribed....sometimes he does, but not always.
My question.....does everyone who takes oxycodone/methadone act like this? Up all night, nodding, falling asleep in the middle of a sentence, falling asleep/nodding nights and mornings? Walking around with eyelids drooping, barely able to keep eyes open...eating sweets all day every day. Is this how everyone on opiods acts? And "snorting" meds too?
I'm hoping for lots of responses, cause I would hate to do what I'm about to do, and find out later that I was wrong about things, and that everything my husband was telling me was true, and it is just "his way" of treating his pain????
I can't stand living like this any longer. We have no relationship. When I'm upstairs sleeping during thenight, he's downstairs. When I'm downstairs in the morning, he goes upstairs to sleep. I can't have a conversation with him, because he's always falling asleep. Is it like this for all of you?????
The other part of the problem is that since he has started taking these opiods, nearly five years ago, he has gambled away tens of thousands of dollars......something he never did before he started taking opiods.
He had told me when he first started taking these pills that he just wanted to try crushing/snorting the oxycontin just to see what it was like, and that it grabbed him by the *ss, and he couldn't stop. He detoxed twice, but went back on them telling me that he used to abuse the opiods then, but doesn't now.
Is it like this for all of you? Please help one last time.