Posted 2/20/2008 5:02 PM (GMT -6)
I know many of you will understand my need to vent a bit. I'm not looking for solutions right now as much as just a little compassionate understanding. I had lumbar fusion surgery 9/11/07 (L4-5, L5-S1) at a major university center in Pittsburgh. Had a minimally invasive approach and was siven an 80-90% chance of reducing or eliminating radiculopathy, sciatic pain, etc. You know the symptoms. Feet are also numb. Of course, no improvement since surgery and my surgeon finally ordered a new MRI a couple of weeks ago. I wrote him an e-mail yesterday asking to talk with him about the MRI, and he writes back telling me that he sees a lot of inflammation, and recommends another "traditional" surgery to remove the inflammed tissue. I felt like I've been run over by a truck, and then it backed up and ran over me again, ya know? I wish doctors would understand the power of their words. He was also basing this on ONE other patient who had a "similar' MRI and he did the surgery and the leg pain disappeared. Believe me, I'm not running in for more surgery anytime soon, but I'm feeling even more depressed than I already was (I fortunately just started an anti-depressant 2 weeks ago). I am in a state of shock right now, and just need to regain my balance and knew that people on this board would understand. How many failed back surgeries are enough (one is one too many, right?). Yet sometimes it's needed, but I'm not even fully recovered from the first one, plus I've exhausted all my resources, am facing bankruptcy and possible loss of my house. I don't even know where I'd recuperate!
But that's beside the point. I don't want anyone cutting me again! Anyone understand how I'm feeling right now?
Thanks for being here!