many years ago, when gramps and i were teenagers and dinosours roamed the earth, i knew a mafiosto (yes, these people Do exist). he gave me some advice that i would kile for you to write on your heart, to keep in your emotions, and on your forehead, to always keep before your eyes: ALWAYS tell thte truth to your lawyer and to your doctor. The first one can dream up some legal excuse to get you off and the second can't treat what he/she doesn't know about.
remember that going to a dr is like a marriage: its roots are in mutual trust. if i don't trust my dr, i will not follow his/her advice adn will find another one. if my dr doesn't trust mer he/she will be constrained from providing me with the medical car e to which i am entitled. i feel like i can tell and of my drs anything without risk. i trust, and belive, that any of my drs can tell me anything and i can trust the statemet completly. example: iu saw a pulminary specialist about a month ago. all over his literature was jersus this and christ that. fine, but i'm jewish. on one of the forms, he asked if i wanted christian spiritual counseling as part of my treatment. my answer as, "no, but would you like some jewish theology?" when i saw him and he read my "book" questionaire, i could tell when he came to that "religious" part of the questionaire. he looked at me and i looked at him. he smiled and said he might want to know about judaism and i told him that after we got my lungs sorted out we could perhaps discuss christian theology. we both laughed and went on with the examination. (I HOPE THAT THIS PARAGRAPH DOESN'T STEP ON TOO MANY TOES. BUT IT'S A TRUE EXPERIENCE WHICH ILLISTRATES MY POINTS).
whern lortabs pooped out on me about 5 yrs ago, i told my dr and he changed the rx another medication. he trusts me to be open to his suggestions and to never abuse the drugs or his trust. i never will.
get the same relationship with your drs, skeeter. holding back will only hurt you, IMHO.
i wish you all of the wisdom you can hold in making this life-altering decision. the best of luck. may God smile on you and your choices.
That light at the end of he tunnel? It's an on-coming train.