Posted 3/21/2008 1:56 AM (GMT -6)
PAlady--great reply, thanks. Sometimes I feel peripheral to what's going on in society, the "normal" routine, the expectations (oh, yes there are), the live your best life every day, seize the day, etc.......We had this new employee at work I really had no need to talk too, ever, different job, area, etc., but passed by each other on occation. Well, about two months after returning from medical leave, still fatigued, still have my illness (because there is no cure!) this new employee took me aside and told me she felt "offended" by me because I appear to ignore her and don't make any effort to say hi or get to know her. I was so shocked that I began to cry and apologized to her and disclosed to this stranger that I have a medical condition, blah, blah, blah--much more than I would have normally said but I was weak and very vulnerable. You see, on some days, especially at that time, it takes all my energy to make it through a work day, I'm not ignoring anyone, I'm just trying to get through it. I guess one could make the argument that I need to make an effort towards others, being attentive or "giving" would in turn make me feel better, etc. Work is weird; these are not friends, you are paid to do a job, but there is this personal interaction that is expected around birthdays, pregnancies, marriages, holidays, etc. I mean, once I thought about it, I was truely stunned that someone would let their feelings get hurt because they thought I was ignoring them?? And what's really going on in my head is, "I hope nobody's in the bathroom."
Whoa, maybe OT, but going back to work has me thinking. And it's 1 a.m.