Hi, i can feel your pain. I have a degenerating disc (between L1 and L2 caising me TONs of pain), have torn teh ACL (complete) MCL partial and busted the meniscus in 5 places ( 4 were fixed teh fith was removed) which has contributed to my everyday back pain stemming from 2 motorcycle racing accidents and wrapping a car around a tree at 90+ MPH. This is all AFTER my diagnosis of a degenerating disc, and the knee surgery has only made it worse.
My GP takes me seriously but is sscared ot prescribe anythign more than 15mg oxycodone 4xdaily,(beause he worries about looking like a quack) and even though it takes the edge off, I CANNOT get a PMS to see me, they all say "we're not taking new patients'. And thhat's WITH a refereal from my Doc. I have a degenerating disc, compressed vertebret in my upper back and many more issues. The meds i get are "okay" at best.
I have not been labeled a "drug seeker" (due to teh extent and cause of my injuries) but because of my young age, no PM doc will take me seriously. Everyday is a struggle of weather i find "alternate sources" for relief, the feelings of bringing the people around me "down" or having them see me as "drug addict" and still deal with the pain.
I hope to god you find some one who will take you...as after 9 years of dealing with this i'm honeslty ready for a final peace and rest at the last. I see it as there being no better relief than being out of my worldly duties and passed on to heaven for the proper relief of my pain and to ease teh minds of those who care by them knowing i am finally living without pain and in a better place.
I hope it doesn't get this bad for you. But honestly i cannot take it anymore...some nights i go to sleep with the hopes that i don't wake up to deal with antoher day of aganony.
The sad part is i have to come up with at least 20K dollars for the surgery i need + pay off the one's i've already had to get the next stage of relief, and i have NO insurance..
The info in my profile is bogusand i go through a second parties internet account just to feel safe posting this ( or i wouldn't ...period) as i alwasy feel big broehter is watching and there t make my life more of a hell than it is.
and yes my grmmar sucks, but as usual with pain meds not doing teh jb, im stuck adding vodka t help ease teh pain...i wish there was some one who understood and didn't think iw as just after a "pill buzz"
god bless again and best of luck!!!!!!!!!!
I feel i'm stuck living the life of the tortured and uncared for, i will not purposley end my life, but at this stage, i'm not doing anything to prevent it! I hope3 you can cope with it better than I... God bless!
I hope you have a better way of dealing with it that i have found to be the "only way"
Post Edited (Stuntrider) : 3/28/2008 12:04:23 PM (GMT-6)