Hi Toritoo & All!
Toritoo, I've kept you in my thoughts ever since you shared your saga on that other thread...I'm sure you could instruct us all on the virtues of acceptance & tolerance & steadfast-ness in endurance of all your have experienced and continue to sustain w/ such grace and long-suffering patience. I still simply cannot imagine what you deal with every day....yet you are here with us,offering your comments &support. You are a marvel! I think about
you so often. Thank you for your company and companionship.
But back to the topic PALady suggested: Sometimes nothing anyone can say or do to us or for us helps at all (as we all know) but I do have a plaque that my daughter gave me after my 2nd procedure, when I was distraught & terribly worried about
the unknowns, the possible continuance of my un-raveling spine, the constant CP, possible future problems down the road, etc. It simply says: "Que sera sera". What will be, will be. (from that old Doris Day song that now will turn into an "ear worm" for many of us who remember her singing it!)
I put it right above the kitchen sink & see it many times each day. It helps. Not all the time, but often enough to get thru some days when I'd rather, literally, "jump in the Lake" (another thread?! ) We simply don't know what's ahead. And if we did, at least for me personally, I would have gone nuts for sure. Even now!
We weep, we pray, sometimes we laugh, often we agonize, bargain, rail against our fates, but always we endure. Que sera sera. Not defeatest in the least--just the truth. Whatever happens, happens. It is what it is. We go on.
I hope something happens today that will help us all to plough thu not only today but tomorrow & all the other "tomorrows" that lie ahead.
This is a substantial topic and a very helpful thread! I will have an introspective day now, for sure! And that alone should take my mind off the CP for awhile!
~Lakeside, inside, as it's raining (PALady--you will get our rain by tomorrow or Friday! Sorry!)
Nov. 06-- Lammy @ L4, removal of spinal cystic tumor @ L4/5(benign)
Dec. 06--Re-operation for post-surgical spinal fluid leak. 2nd surgery complications includied sciatic nerve damage & radiculopathy in R leg/foot, increased instability (grade 1 spondy, 17%), epidural scar tissue binding nerve roots, damaged facet joints & DDD @ L4/5.
Jan. 08--PLIF fusion/discetomy surgery with pedicle screw instrumentation @ L4/L5, another lammy (@ L/5 this time) & bone marrow harvest from left iliac crest for packing bone around disc cages after discectomy @ L4/5. OW!!!