KEEP THE FAITH IN THAT YOU ARE HEALING YOURSELF! I know exactly where you are , I was there myself. I have had over 20+ years of pain and pain med management. TEX JEN , and CHUTZ have hit the nail on the head... just work to get yourself better!!!!!!! You seem extremely in tune with the world and we can't have you checking out on us!!! You are an important member HERE!! VENT!!! VENT!!! VENT!!!!!!! let it out, there is so much care and knowledge here! We are all here for you!!
PEACE to you today and everyday!