Port - It comes down to the same thing no matter how you look at the circumstances. You did something you should not have done - regardless of the circumstances, you took some one elses medication - even though it was just once, it was the wrong once. The same with the marij. Your husband is breaking the law by smoking it. He knows it, and you knew it, regardless of how long it was being done. No one is trying to put you down for any of it. I know that there are times I've really wished I had better pain medication, times when my husband would have intentionally given me something, even if it wasn't mine, if it would help my pain. Hubby can't stand to see me on a "bad" pain day.
You have to decide whether or not you should tell your doctor up front about
the problems, or wait for them to get the results. Either way you are going to have to admit that you took medicine that was not prescribed for you. At the worse you'll also have illegal drugs showing up in your screen as well. The decision has to be yours, tell ahead of time, and hope that the upfront honesty will work, or don't tell him and hope that he'll only find out about
the valium, and that he'll accept your explanation after the fact. No one here can tell you what your doctors reaction will be.
If you get stuck being dismissed from his office, I'm not sure what to tell you. As far as purchasing medication over the internet, I wouldn't doubt if you could, but it is probably very expensive, and then should you find a doctor willing to help you, when they ask why you are taking ____insert med here____ explaining the new situation about
you ordering medication online.
I wish I had more positive information - but it all comes back to you having to decide what you want to do.
I do agree with the other posts though, saying that you need to find a way to relax and/or calm down and destress. You might also need to find out exactly what is wrong with your kidney if you don't know because depending on what medications you take it could reflect on your kidney as well. Also - I know about
pain going up because of stress - the problem is medication will not make the stress go away - therefor the reason for the pain is still there. Breathing techniques, relaxing music, relaxing videos, spiritual books, The Bible, exercise, something needs to be found to help get you past the stress so you can deal with the pain better.
I wish you the best.
"When we come to the edge of the light we know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, of one thing we can be sure; either God will provide something solid to stand on... or we will be taught to fly.'"
"Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of, You might bend, till you break Cause its all you can take; On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough, You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off, Then you Stand" From "Stand" by Rascal Flatts
Dx.: Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, Ulcerlative Colitis, Chronic Inflammation of the Colon, Ruptured & Fused L4-L5-S1 w/pinched nerves, Degenerative Disc Disease, Chronic Costochondritis, Back Muscle Spasms, Asthma, Benign Tremmors (hands)