Freya, first of all, I don't think that what u ar feeling when your hubby leaves for work is jealousy, but rather, envy. We all envy folks who don't have CP issues but I'm sure that ppl who have worse probs than we do envy those of us able to even get out of bed, much less walk. And ppl who can't even move a finger prob envy those folks. It's just human nature. It doesn't mean that we wish some one to be like us, but that we wish that we could be like them.
As for getting up and moving around......it hurts, plain and simple. I'm spealing only for myself, but I have to make myself get out of bed almost every day(sometimes I have that rare, elusive day creature called No Pain). It hurts to get up out of that comfy bed, esp if it's someplace like mine, a little nest where I am most comfortable. But, that said, I know that FOR MYSELF, I do feel better when I get out of bed and do something, albeit a small thing, to get my blood flowing. If I do the dishes(hubby usually does them) I have to sit down at least once, my legs and back hurt so much. But it forces me to breath deeper, and get more O2 to my heart and brain.
I'm sure that no one was putting u down, sweetie, just offering helpful suggestions that they have found, often over many yrs, that help them.
As for the neuropsychiatrist, my PM clinic offers this service and I imagine that most do. They can help a person cope with what well may be a lifelong affliction, and not just with meds. Coming here does much the same thing(and I can get good advice and support in my jammies lol). Hope u decide to stay, I'm sure that u have something to offer here that could help someone else cope better.
As for your dx being embarrassing, it's not like you'll ever actually meet any of us. To me, that makes it easier to share some things that could be a bit embarrasing.
As for the joke, as I stated in the thread with the jokes, I have a goofy sense of humor too. If u decide not to share it here, email it to me, I'll prob love it ;) I think my email is in my profile, I'll check.
Hope to "see" u around
I am not my pain, it does not own me.