Melissa, I don't know that being "part of the group" is what any of us really want...who WANTS to be a CPP? But, m'dear, I am sorry to report that after reading your post that you, indeed, are part of the group!
Sorry, I was just playing around with the words there.....I don't want you to think that I really didn't understand what you were saying. I know exactly what you are saying...it's hard enough feeling as an outcast in the regular world, and you were feeling that way in the cyber world. I do hope you continue to come back and visit with us and share how things are going.
My mini-vacation was basically about working on me. I post in the depression forum, too, and found myself going deeper into depression rather than feeling better. So, I completely stopped reading for a while and am just now coming back around. In the pain forum it helps to talk about it, but in the depression forum (for me anyway) talking/thinking/acknowledging it was making it worse.
Glad to see you have decided to give us yet another chance. Sometimes it just takes telling it like it is to get our attention!
cervical fusion 2006
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005
MEDS: Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and Flexeril
To handle yourself, use your head...to handle others, use your heart
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.
Post Edited (Mochiah) : 5/14/2008 8:56:07 PM (GMT-6)