Mike - so many people go through exactly what you've said - and many
openly confessed to it above. It is so easy to tell yourself that this isn't going to work over and over and over again, and yet find yourself broken down because it didn't. I feel that everyone of us in chronic pain suffers that - we are all waiting for the "miracle" that is going to fix us, and allows us to take back the life that seems to slip farther and farther away from all of us.
I wish I could tell you that everything would be fixed tomorrow, but I can't. I can tell you though - do not give up on hope. Doctor's are learning new things every day, new procedures are being created, and perfected each and every day as well. Gramps is always posting things about
doctors fighting on our side to help us achieve the relief we wish for and deserve that seems so elusive at times.
Each person reacts to things differently - and there is always that bit of light that says soon they are going to find a way to help your/our pain. Don't let that ray of hope get away from you, as there are some days it might be all you have to hold onto to keep you above the water. Don't give up because your may still be suffering linger pain or nerve damage that needs to heal before you'll feel relief. Keep fighting, because one day someone will be able to help you get the pain under control - even if it's not gone.
I'll be thinking of you, know that everyone here at healingwell is hoping the best for you!
"When we come to the edge of the light we know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, of one thing we can be sure; either God will provide something solid to stand on... or we will be taught to fly.'"
"Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of, You might bend, till you break Cause its all you can take; On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough, You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off, Then you Stand" From "Stand" by Rascal Flatts
Dx.: Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, Ulcerlative Colitis, Chronic Inflammation of the Colon, Ruptured & Fused L4-L5-S1 w/pinched nerves, Degenerative Disc Disease, Chronic Costochondritis, Back Muscle Spasms, Asthma, Benign Tremmors (hands)