Hello Gramm and was so glad to see you had gotten some help as I could feel your despair really in your words and you do have that, a way with words so I am fairly certain your books and poetry must be great.
We all in this CP life experience feelings of hopelessness and despair and some way more then others, I didnt see anywhere that you have actually seen a Psych Doc and please dont take this to mean I think everything is in your head! By all means that is the furtherest thought I had reading your posts. They come in so handy when working in conjunction with our pain Docs since this life leaves us with so many emotional rollercoasters to ride. They are wonderful in helping and aiding our PM Docs with the stress and anxieties of knowing our lives as we knew them will never be the same.
As CPers we go thru some of the very feelings and stages of grief and loss that those who have lost someone thru death does. We have in essence lost ourselves in this world of tests,docs,pain and everyday dealing with all that being in this place brings us. Not only do we have to deal with the challenges of living in constant pain we live with those folks who dont take our pain seriously, getting where we need to go when we need to get there, figuring out a way to do the things we took for granted for prior to all of this not to mention finding the right meds and not being zonked at all times.
It isnt an easy road we travel and the stressors are sometimes far more then our pain and once we can get the depression and anxiety under control we then can rationally see the road to find answers for our pain issues and be able to carry out those plans needed without falling apart.
Once I was able to put my mind in a better place my thought processes became clearer so I could actual aide in my own treatment plan and therefore settled into a more comfortable routine of dealing with this all of it.
You have gotten some very good advice and this bunch here is one of the best most compassionate group and you were lucky like me to have stumbled across them.
Just wanted to drop ina nd say Hi and ad my two cents worth and the nerve damage the Doc suggested might be wrong sounds like a starting point for you.
I did want to add here that your Doc sounded like a good one when she suggested to not get your hopes up as far as the injections and not giving you a false sense of them working for you long term as not alot of folks have great success with them for any length of time but for many it is a last resort attempt to try something and in most cases what can it hurt? If they bring about
even a days worth of relief in my book it would be worth it.
Bilateral knee replacements,spondylosis of L-3,4,5 and S-1, osteoarthritis,premenopausal migraines.
Meds: Methadone,xanax,zanaflex,maxide,prempro,K+,indocin,lexapro,neurontin(coming off) lyrica(going onto)