Hi, Nvrthesame. Welcome to the group. I found this site several months ago and felt just like you - the people seemed so caring and helpful that I broke down and joined my first ever internet chat site!
Your user name says it all - the pain just changes everything, doesn't it? You've come to the right place for support and friendship, though. It has made a world of difference to me to have people to talk to who truly know what I'm going through.