Hi Susie, you are so sweet. How thoughtful of you to think of me and write. I admit, I, for the most part do not put a lot of faith in doctors. The one I see tomorrow in my pcp. He has gone along for the most part with anything I have asked of him. I must admit this last med he gave me, I didn't ask for, is an extended release and these past couple of weeks have been the best I've had in quite some time. I don't feel like an invalid which I was feeling. I've been driving and walking a little and that alone brings me so much joy. As I said I was rarely home before, hated being in the house, so this affliction was like a cruel punishment, taking away what you love the most, the outdoors and exercising, besides the fact I couldn't sit in a car very long or even think of doing much and would find myself jealous of others, which I didn't like about myself, nor could I even think about working. I feel if I stay on this, I would be able to work. But, I am just afraid, since nothing definite serious has been found, only my word, that I'll be dropped from the pills and I hate the thought of feeling the pain and never sitting comfortable, etc. I don't know how he feels about it, I am happy that I am doing more and want to do more. Of course, I wish I didn't need a pill but I do now in my life and pray for a miracle that someday I won't. I am afraid he'll say you can't stay on this pill and I'm thinking ahead. We'll see, I hope it goes well.
I am sorry what you are going through and understand you grieving your life as it was. That's how I felt. I came out to Arizona and said I wanted to get more rugged and hike and bam one month later, pain. I thank you sincerely for reaching out to me and having concern for me. I wish you the very best life has to offer and pray that you feel better,
Blessings to u, Barbara and thanks again, you are so kind, I wish I could help you in some way, but will pray.