Im pretty new to this site as well and i can say that all here have been a life saver for me.
One thing i would like to bring up to everyone here is that when we were are faced with a life altering change in our lives it really brings to home just how mortal we all are. Now saying that here is the flip side.
Just think back when you frist started goin through what you are now dealing with and how hard it was to come to terms with and how much of your life it has changed and how little control you really have over things and with a blink of an eye it all changes.
When talking with other about what I am goin through i realized the other day that it is hard for them to ADMIT that there is really anything the matter with you because they dont know how to deal with it and it also brings to light that at any given moment there own lives can be changed and there allusion of control is shattered.
Some the strong ones stay by your side and become wonderful people in your life but others when faced with the possiblity that this may happen to them are unable to cope.
At first i thought when thinking on this how week these people truely are and then i had to dig a bit deeper and realize that we are all so different and cant fault those that cant get past the fact that life is a gift given to each one of us. That we are not guaranteed anything but the second we are in and it is up to us on what we will do with each second affored us. They would rather go through life thinking that it will never happen to them because it is the only way they can surrive in this world...
Altho you are bodly week Loney it takes much more in this life to be spirtuly strong and emotional strong and we are the ones that show the rest of the world what STRONG is really about and that pushes them to really look deeply inside themselfs and see what there really made of and most dont want to.
Life is and will always be a battlefield of the mind 9 tenth of what we go through in life is in our minds and we win or loose depending on our mindset...with that said Lonely I have only one other thing to say
Sometimes in life we are so consumed with being hurt that we pass on chances put in our paths because of that fear..but I am of the mindset that if you dont put yourself out there then you may be passing up on one of the best blessing you ever had. weather that may be a future mate or the best friend you ever had or a support group that will be your life line to becoming all you are ment to be or the fact that you and only you will have the ablity to touch someones heart through your stroy.
We all have something to offer this world and the people around us but it is up to us to present that to those that are willing to take what we offer....all we can do is offer it up to them..its up to then to take it. It does not make us less because the body isnt hole it makes us more because what we have to give is so much more than those it cost nothing to give.
If it cost you nothing and requires nothing of you in return then what does it really mean...just that not much...but when it cost much then the meaning and the depth is so much more.
I hope i dint bore you with all this but one thing being alone has offered to be and that is the ablity to dweal and think and to try and find a way to make a mark with my life that is for the better...
I know that it is hard the thought of putting yourslef out there exp with ( no actual reason to explain your CP) I am in the same boat I even have to take the looks from my own family of ya right well the mri didnt show anything the doc cant explain it but yet here i am on all kids of pain med not being able to work and worrying bout how i will provide for my family.
But i realized something the other day and that is that I have nothing to prove to them and at the end of the day it really doesnt matter what they think because i still have to go on and deal with my pain so i choose to look at them as i have stated above those they just cant deal because it pushes them to look at there own mortality and vulerablity.
sorry for being so long winded All i quess in many ways I am dealing with the same thing...
I hope that this helped a bit Lonley and to all that struggle with this same issue...
Lonely you are not alone and are always welcome