Thank you all for your responses and support. I have this bad habit of obsessing over things that I cannot control or have little control over. I have always wanted to go to Hawaii and now I'm going to go and all I do is find reasons for not going. My wonderful husband does not deserve that. He works so hard and has been so loving and supportive that I need to do this for home as well as for myself.
I wish I could take all of you so that we could commiserate about our pain, but enjoy each others company in what is as close to heaven as possible while still on earth.
I have been seeing a psychiatrist since my daughter's accident in 2001. I also have depression issues, as most of us CPrs do. She is working with me on this issue I have about being too far from home. It's not even the trip to Hawaii. I never want to be too far from home - it's almost like agoraphobia, but once I'm out and about I'm fine. Geez, what a loon I am.
Thanks again for the support.
Degenerative Disc Disease, Spinal Stenosis, Herniated Disc, Arthritis of the Spine, some kind of problem with the L5-S1 area, sciatica, diabetes, depression and anxiety.
Lord help me to remember that nothing will happen to me today that you and I can't handle together.