Of course I remember you PA.
I must admit I was a bit surprised by the Beach Party thread and jokes threads since the last I was here those types were being deleted for being off topic. I am glad it is being accepted now because we all know diverting your mind from the pain is a godsend no matter what form.
Ladyred, thank you for your offer of support. Right now I think I am still on cloud 9 from getting the gumption to do it, but I am sure I will be taking you up on your offer when reality hits. 20 years is a very long time to be with someone. I had kicked him out a year ago for the drinking, but that time I listened to the kids (who were making me feel like the big bad bully) and I gave him another chance. I also listened to, and believed, the I promise I will quit lecture. Then, the drinking didn't stop and I realized that the kids that are at home are 16 and 19 and will be leaving the nest....I needed to do what made me happy.
I do find it very interesting that when I was depressed his response was "I am a believer that if you think yourself happy then you will be." But now that it is HIM who is depressed I am supposed to feel sorry for him.
Oh, another thing I am super excited about
is that I am going on my first REAL vacation in about
7 years....you know where you really go away....not where you are having surgery and recovering! I am going to upstate NY to where I grew up and seeing my old house and my prior roommate/best friend whom I have not seen in over 20 years.
cervical fusion 2006
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005
MEDS: Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and Flexeril
To handle yourself, use your head...to handle others, use your heart
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.