Exactly PA. Failed Back Syndrome means that you had a surgery (or in my case three) and it failed to take care of the problem. I think that is the easiest way to explain the whole thing anyway. I know I kinda brought up a heavy subject and if anyone doesn't want to speak of this I totally understand, but my purpose for posting this was to get ya'lls view about
how your life has changed and what you are doing now to compensate for the injuries and health issues that are now filling your lives with such horrid and lonely problems.
Me, myself I have actually taken measures to ensure that my life does not end up like "Titanic" (even though it sometimes feels that way) at the bottom of a very cold ocean (sorry about
the reference to Titanic, seems I've been reading a lot about
the disaster that happened way back when......gotta be bored huh?). It's funny (or in this case scary) to think that each of us, though drawn together by one certain cause, have different views of what exactly life holds for us in the future. I have tried hard to put this behind me (sometimes I whine a lot about
being in so much pain) and still try hard to do the things that I once enjoyed so much figuring that if I give up one part of my life then the rest will be just too easy to quit at as well. I just don't want to give into the pain and think that someday all of us will be without this horrible health issue. I know this in my heart that each of us that suffer will someday be without this pain (even though it may be that we will die in pain), but it is so hard to give up my old life without a fight, you know?
I find it is a trait of my families to be so stubborn and as hubby says that I am. I guess I'm on the other end of the spectrum where I wish so much for my old life back that I will keep continuing to fight for it until my last breath. Of course, you caught me on one of those days where I feel the passion welling up inside and think that this too I can overcome, but that is not my view on days when the pain is bad and I think going back and forth has made me more determined to capture some sense of my old life. Even though on those days that I feel strong and determined, I am still in pain (that's one of my constants that does not go away), I still feel that no matter what I do I will be in pain anyway, so why not enjoy the day while I can. Then I'll grab my camera and head out to my favorite haunts and sneak up on an unsuspecting critter and snap picture after picture. It's funny how it distracts my thoughts from my own troubles, if only for a few seconds and I feel a little better about
I think that is where my determination comes from, but I am not sure. Anyway, there is my take today (we will see how it is tomorrow) and tomorrow may hold another story all together.
Have a great night all and I will try to make it on tomorrow though I have an inspector coming tomorrow for the buyers to pick apart my house LOL.
Hugs and gentle squeezes,
P.S. By the way.........we are sitting at 5 days and counting until the buyer has any room to complain about
the house, so cross your fingers that this will go through and we will be OUTTA HERE! hehehehehe