Disce, I am beginning to see that it can very well be a long process. I still dont know what I am going to do about
keeping my kids as I can only work part time right now. So I still have alot of decission to make concerning my CP and how to manage it all. But I am just trying to take one day at a time and deal with things as they come. Not always a easy feat when things start piling up. But I quess we are all in that one together.
I am hoping to be dealing with the pain management doc and only him most of the time now. He has a whole PT thing set up in his office as well...So I think that would help alot instead of running to 4 different docs all week long, sigh, It really is time comsuming.
I am really tired and hurting tonight so I'm not staying on late tonight am hoping that sleeping pills will just knock me out tonight. My kids have first day of school tomorrow and I must admit I am a bit scared about that as well because my kids have to catch the bus at 545 and at 645 and 7. They have to stagger them here as there are so many newbes in the neighborhood and not enought busses. And as I, on most nights, either dont fall alseep intil 4am or 6 or fall alseep and wake up somewhere between 3 and 4am. So getting up early to get kids out and off is worrying me a bit.
But I quess I will see and if I cant manage then I will have to send them to there dads intil I get back on my feet. Think I have been in denial up until this point thinking that I can manage and the last 2 weeks has just about did me in. But I came to the conclusion that if I cant take care of them with any quality then just being a body here wont do them any good at all anyways and I have to accept that as well as everything else.
Just another long list of things this last while to deal with. But I am strong and will find a way to cope with it all one way or another. At the end of the day we can only do what we can, by no fault or lack of trying on our part.
Thanks again Disce