Sounds like you have had quite a time of it. I'm so sorry you have gone through so much. I pray your pain is controlled. I think it's an excellent idea that your husband keep your morphine away from you as you could be forgetful and overdose again. God Forbid.
Let us know how you are doing. I look forward to hearing from you again.
Moderator Chronic Pain
Believe in yourself. Be kind to fellow humans and animals. Take time to smell the flowers and the coffee.
And by all means, when you are down, ask me for help. I will be there.