Welcome to the chronic pain forum of Healing Well. I am glad you are here, though very sorry to hear of your elbow pain and difficulties. I think you are between a rock and a hard place without the surgeries being much of a success. That is too too bad.
I understand how you would want to work to keep busy and I think that's a smart thing to do. Can you handle the library position so far? You didn't really say. I hope it is working for you.
As for pain meds, you have to give them a try. There are mild ones and stronger ones. Perhaps a mild one would not make you so drowsy, like ultracet or even darvocet. Keep communication
open and clear with your doctor and don't give up.
Please keep posting with us. I look forward to getting to know you via this forum. Also, don't forget the chat rooms as well. There are a lot of nice people on chat as well who are in chronic pain.
God bless you, Carica and gentle hugs,
Moderator Chronic Pain
Believe in yourself. Be kind to fellow humans and animals. Take time to smell the flowers and the coffee.
And by all means, when you are down, ask me for help. I will be there.