Hello Clever sorry to hear you are still stuggling so much.
I was wondering if you can go outside of the VA? My dad is a POW and has a great VA, but he has heard many horror stories from fellow POWs that dont and have to seek treatment elsewhere. I would encourage you to look outside the VA if all possible.
Many of us, including myslef have had to go through several doctors before we found one that would treat us or manage us with any kind of diginty or meds. I have been to 4 and Im only 3 months into my accident.
I know you worry about addition, but once again I really want to stess there is a difference between addition and DEPENDANCE, a big differance. You have already proven you are able to get off the pain meds with less diffuctly than others so I would deff assume you dont have an addition problem clever but a dependance that helps you to fuction in a world of pain. It is a dependance out of ness. and not out of want of pain meds.
I can understand completly that you are worried about addition and the stigma that comes with being on pain meds for an extended amount of time. You have nothing to prove to anyone but your self clever and for those that dont understand then you just have to file that away as there problem, they are not the ones dealing with your pain.
I, myslef, can not sleep at night due to my pain in my lower back, hips, and thighs. It is so bad at night I cry every night. I hate pills and I hate pain meds exp. I hate the way they make me feel, but I hate the pain even worse. At night even on the pain meds, I find it almost unbareable. I sit there thinking every night will I finally get up and go the the er this night.
I have to be able to manage my life and right now only having slept 3 to 5 hrs a night for the last 3 months has taken its toll on me and I am warry thin. You have to be able to get some sleep clever. That makes everything even worse to deal with, I know!
I am not an advaget of pills by no means clever, but there are a time and place and sometimes we do what we must to surrive and not what we want.
I would also try ice packs, I swear by them more so than heat but that is me. and Please, Please seek another doctor if at all possible clever there very well could be more help for you. One of the things to check out is RF injections....there radiofrequency ablation injections. I know I will looking into them myself and we have similar problems with our lower backs. The steriod injections have not worked for me so far.
just some links I have been looking at.
I really hope things get better for you clever and remember you have control over your doctors they are to work for you and not the other way around and if they dont then find one that will. It is your right as a humam being, father, husband and as a former military man!
Take care clever and I will be praying for you and your family