I think that's awesome what you've posted. I've been making much more of an effort the last few weeks to be more positive about
things. Yes, it requires a lot more effort -- a LOT more -- but I've found it's had some surprising consequences.
A few weeks ago I bought a new notebook for journaling. I spent a little bit more & got one that's pink & happy looking. I only allow myself to write happy thought in it. If I'm really struggling with something & have to write it down, I get out a piece of looseleaf & throw it away once I'm done. I try to write in my happy journal every night -- but usually it's only every other night b/c I forget. I write about
my hopes, dreams, accomplishments & anything else good in my life. It can be something dumb like a yummy food I tried, or something more major like getting caught up on all the dishes or laundry, or if I had a bad day, I'll write about
why tomorrow is going to be better. I've been really surprised b/c even though I was just writing them down so I would have something happy to read when I'm bedridden, it's actually helped me on a lot of the other days. I've been getting a LOT more done at work & a home. My desk is more than 50% cleared off at work (it was a total mess just a few weeks ago) and my home, while no where close to immaculate, is definitely presentable. I've finally felt up to making a few phone calls to friends & have been pretty faithful in doing my 2 minutes of core work & 5-10 minutes of light "cardio" almost everyday [ok, so "cardio" might be a stretch, but it is moving at a faster pace than usual]. In spite of all this, I've still been under my prescribed dose of painkillers.
I've tried all kinds of stuff in the past. Worst of which was counseling. Upon reflection, I realized that all I did was complain about
my life, my week & my job in counseling and talk about
my evil little plans. I wondered how different my life would be if I would spend a couple hours a week to only write/talk about
positive things & about
my good little plans. I didn't really know if much would come of it. I hoped I would sleep better. Unfortunately, that part hasn't worked out yet; but I've just started, so who's to say it won't turn around any day now?! ;)
I don't want to seem all crazy sappy & stuff. It's not like I'm pain-free or anything, but I have been really surprised about
how many of my silly happy little plans that I never thought would actually happen, but wrote down like they would anyways, have now come to pass. I'm kinda sleepy right now, so hopefully all that made at least some sense. I just wanted to agree with you that sometimes taking a risk & trying some new things ends up bringing us more life, joy & hope that we really imagine possible.
Maybe some people will write about
not over-doing it with the pain, but if I'm reading you right, that's not what you're saying. So I say -- GO FOR IT!!!
Maybe we can both keep writing about
when something good happens to us? I know I'd like to hear more from you -- and hopefully we can rope some other people in in the process.