What a heroic act for you to have done! You saved two lives! And it's criminal that you have to pay this price.
Did you go to the ER after you lifted the motorcycle, or at least is there a police report? Because that might help you get some well-deserved sympathy AND medical care. I might even call a lawyer and see if what you did could be in any way connected with the accident and if you could recoup some medical costs through the insurance of the motorcycle driver. And even if not, perhpas they'd be willing to help you consideirng you saved their lives!
There also should be some community mental health programs around. Please call one, or at least call the suicide hotline - it's 1-800-SUICIDE. PLEASE call them. You have children to live for who need you, but I understand your feeling overwhelmed right now. We can help you with support, but you need to make a few calls to help yourself.
And here's a thought - this looks like a story the media would love as a human interest, and you may get some help not only from programs but kind hearted citizens who can offer money and other forms of support. Forget your pride for the moment - and trust me, I know that's hard to do - but what you did was save two people's lives. Please, get some help, and call a local newspaper or tv station and tell them your story. I'll bet someone will pick up on it.
BTW how could you lift the motorcycle? Because in times when we're faced with a serious impending threat our bodies shoot off a huge amount of adrenalain and shut down pain receptors so we can do some amazing things for a very short time. Like lift a motorcycle. It doesn't mean you won't feel the effects of that action later, but in those rare moments our bodies can do amazing things.
Post Edited (PAlady) : 10/17/2008 12:54:35 PM (GMT-6)