Pain intolerable-so is meds,heat,cold,,pain clinics,help me endorphenes help me

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   Posted 12/11/2008 8:47 AM (GMT -6)   
Crying right now because of pain. just cannot take it anymore. too tired fighting it. Y can't I just take endorphenes by mouth or inhale it or put it on my skin? I must escape this chronic pain thats just gotten worse over the last 35 years! I'm just out of ideas. Lost in hell and no where to turn Reaching out right now. Usually I can cope but verge of giving up screw prayer too DOn't know where to turn any more If there was an ocean near here in Minnesota, I would get in the warm water and start swimming out and never come back. Thats how I want to go. In the ocean that is warm and salty. Fish food Heck My astrological sign I just realized is cancer-The crab. only difference is ? Just lost, The only thing i have been able to accomplish today since 2:30 am is smoke & drink coffee and now it is 7:42. I'm feeling like a waste of space-utterly useless. What would you do if you were me?
Disabled married woman of 52,boared,crabby,lazy,good-fpr-nothing. Just spent. Know what I mean?
.Useless in Minn.,

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   Posted 12/11/2008 10:02 AM (GMT -6)   
God do I know how u feel....I get so freakin tired of people saying: "it will get better", "just hang in there", well, maybe it won't. What about that? Sometimes you just have to say what you're thinking and to hell with everybody else.,..

What do you take for the pain? Do you have a pain doc? Can you call him/her and get something else?

I just want to say that you ARE NOT A WASTE OF SPACE....There is a way to make yourself feel just have to find it.

Venting is good, it gets rid of the anger and frustration you feel. It might not help with the pain...but stress is a factor and it has to be dealt with. Talk to your doc about something for your nerves....

I hope this helps.....vent anytime..

spinal stenosis,degenerative disc disease,bilateral neuropothy.
lamenectomy L3,L4..spinal fusion L4-S1

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   Posted 12/11/2008 1:03 PM (GMT -6)   
I hear you! I have cried tons and prayed someone would take these headaches away that I have. i have been laying in bed for two months with not a brigth moment. So I talk on my laptop, have my newspaper beside me, tv, book etc, I do some exercises to release some mucsles and pray. And when I go to bed I am thankful that I got thru the day and pray that tomorrow will be just a little bit better and that my day will come for some relief.
I am thankful for little things I accomplish in the day.
Try to find some little things to find a postive in your day. Talk to your doctor. Perhaps a pain management dr. would help. Hang in there. we all know this is tough. Do you have any support people to talk with, husband, friend, sibling??

Come back and tell us how you are doing.

Take care

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   Posted 12/11/2008 2:08 PM (GMT -6)   
Hang in there knit it will get better. I have been in your deep dark thoughts that you are in right now and guess what? It does get better. You have to think of the positive things that you have in your life. If you do not have a support line by now find one immediately because I can tell you from experience without my husband by my side I probably would have given up years ago. I'm always here to talk to as well and my email is on my profile if you need to talk :-)

Hang in there.

HEALTH ISSUES: Herniated discs at S-1-L5, L5-L4, L4-L3. Two level fusion (2000); one level fusion (2002); Revision at L4-L3 (2003). Diagnosed with Failed Back Syndrome, Permanent Nerve damage and Chronic Pain


Kadian, Lexipro, Percocet, Temazapim, Lunista, and Robaxin.

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   Posted 12/11/2008 2:09 PM (GMT -6)   
its now 1 pm, and Im still hurting. Pissed off is more like it. Because actually I caused the increased pain myself. I sat at my desk and chatted and surfed the internet for 6 hours and my limit it on hour at the most at a time without resting a lease a half hour in between not sitting anywhere. I really learned a huge lesson belleive me.Never again.Never ever for more then an hour at the very most without resting inbetween.

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   Posted 12/11/2008 11:13 PM (GMT -6)   
Knit wit sorry you are in so much pain.We all do stupid things like that from time to time.Just hope you have a better day tomarow.
Lost half of my small intestineJan.2008.Ilieostomy for 5 months then reverst in June 2008,Nerve damage to right leg,part of my right hip bone removed Jan. 2008,Cronic pain,hernia,infection in my back called discites,and depression.Gallbladder removed Nov,2008.Mother to 9 kids 7 boys 2 girls and 1 stepson.4 grandsons,9 grandaughters.4 of my grandkids I inherited from my twin sister who passed away 6 1/2 years ago from a blood clot after surgery.God has given me my life back after I almost lost it.Even though its a painful and sometimes hard road to walk I take it one step at a time and give thanks to god for every step I take.

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   Posted 12/13/2008 8:46 PM (GMT -6)   
Wow - I've sure as heck been where you are! And I even know what you mean about sitting at the computer/causing it yourself. I learned from a friend recently who has suffered with arthritis since teen years (he's 60 now, a poverty lawyer)... that "listen to your body" does not just mean listen to it when you've abused it and you're in pain! It means "know" your body - know what you will "pay for" and how to avoid it.

I know that "it will get better" may not be true, but for me, I've had some good doctors who have found a cocktail of meds that seem to work. Am I pain-free? No. But it's manageable and I can enjoy life again.

In the down times, I pull out all the stops...I use every single coping mechanism I possibly can, so I NEVER have to feel the way you describe again (I sure have before)

And ...I know I'll sound like your mother but ... cigarettes and coffee on a bad pain day? Dude!
I have Fibromyalgia, and nothing else!
I take Lyrica 225 mg/day and Tramadol (150mg time-released)

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