Another Bad Day!!!!

Boy am I really growing tired of these bad days! This has been going on for the last week and I am sooooo tired and sooooo exhausted that I am just barely staying awake during the day. I'm not sleeping at night very well (only getting 4-5 hours a night) because I wake up somewhere between 2-4 am in horrible pain down my legs and I have to get up and go to the tub. Once I am in the tub I about fall asleep but when I get out I am wide awake for the remainder of the morning. Frustrating to say the least! To top that off the weather has been horrible here in KS and I am a walking barometer this time of the year. When we get a low pressure system I can feel it and sure enough I hurt pretty darn bad until the weather clears up. But the weather the past week has been up and down so much (one day nice the next snow and wind) that I'm a yo yo of pain soaring from an 8 to a 10 every other day!

I'll be glad when winter is over with and I can get back to the normal routine. It just bites that we all have to be in so much pain. Anyway had to vent a bit...I think I will nap for awhile. Hoping you all have a lessened pain afternoon and evening.

hugsssssssssssssssssss



Scarred

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HEALTH ISSUES: Herniated discs at S-1-L5, L5-L4, L4-L3. Two level fusion (2000); one level fusion (2002); Revision at L4-L3 (2003). Diagnosed with Failed Back Syndrome, Permanent Nerve damage and Chronic Pain

Medications:

Kadian, Lexipro, Percocet, Temazapim, Lunista, and Robaxin.

Thank you so much for your sympathy PA. I know what you mean about the heating bill being high $135 this month and I see no end in sight. Long way to spring as you said but I got some wonderful news that just might be what I need to push me out of this depressing mood. My baby boy has decided to come home! He is struggling on his own and has decided that its time to come home to save some money and stay with mom and dad for awhile. So I will have my son home for awhile and that pleases me. He is bringing his girlfriend with him and that is fine with me so I will have a full home for awhile which will maybe take my mind off of things.

Well, headed for the tub once again.

Scarred

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HEALTH ISSUES: Herniated discs at S-1-L5, L5-L4, L4-L3. Two level fusion (2000); one level fusion (2002); Revision at L4-L3 (2003). Diagnosed with Failed Back Syndrome, Permanent Nerve damage and Chronic Pain

Medications:

Kadian, Lexipro, Percocet, Temazapim, Lunista, and Robaxin.

Thank you so much Skeye. Unfortunately the weather has not let up on bit today either. Its gotten even colder and windier then it was yesterday and made my back feel even worse. Ugggg I hate feeling like a walking weatherman! Oh well not much I can do about it right? Just suffer through and try to look on the brighter side of things.

On another note, I don't know if anyone of my other wonderful CPers have been feeling this way this Christmas but I have been feeling quite downhearted this year. Past years have found me more happier and cheerful then I ever have been; singing carols and decorating the tree and house as well as in the kitchen making tons of cookies, fudge and other goodies for the holidays. But this year its like I cannot even get up the energy to bake. I've not even sent out my cards this year and I always send them out. I don't know why I feel this way but its like I just feel like so sad this year and I wish I knew why. Anyone else feel this way?


Hugssss

Scarred

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HEALTH ISSUES: Herniated discs at S-1-L5, L5-L4, L4-L3. Two level fusion (2000); one level fusion (2002); Revision at L4-L3 (2003). Diagnosed with Failed Back Syndrome, Permanent Nerve damage and Chronic Pain

Medications:

Kadian, Lexipro, Percocet, Temazapim, Lunista, and Robaxin.

Hi Scarred,

I'm so sorry you are still in so much pain today. I'm also having an awful day today. This whole week hasn't been great for me, but today has been a nightmare. I think the only thing that got me through last night was snuggling with one of my cats in bed. He is the sweetest, most loving cat, with the loudest purr. It just helped me so much to feel loved & like I wasn't alone, even though the pain was still there. It's snowing here today, which I'm sure is contributing to my increased pain today. I love the snow, but I hate the way it makes me feel. I hope the weather lets up for both our sakes!

I also haven't been feeling very Christmassy this year. I haven't watched a single Christmas movie, have barely listened to any Christmas music & just did my shopping a couple of days ago. Usually I at least get into the Christmas spirit within a week or two of Christmas. This year, nothing. I've just been feeling so lousy that everything takes so much more of an effort.

Skeye

So sorry you still have all those mice PAlady! I know how hard they can be to get rid of. Several years ago I lived in a dorm room that was infested with mice. I went home for winter break & came back & they had gotten into everything, it was so nasty. You could hear them chewing at night, and then they got bold & would come out & run across the room during the day. We had an exterminator come out & set a ton of traps, etc, which helped for a week, and then they came back... I think we killed off the local population, but others were coming in through the radiator. The building was built in the 1800's and basically hadn't been renovated since (the school also neglected to tell us that the foundation & supports were in danger of crumbling while we were living there!) & I was on the first floor which meant we had the brunt of the mice problems. Of course they completely gutted & redid the building the following year!

This might freak some people out -- but I now actually have a pet snake (he is actually very sweet, snakes have such a bad reputation, which often times is not warranted, especially for snakes raised in captivity that have had a lot of human exposure). I've had him for a few years now. He stays is his cage, but I joke that if I ever have a mouse problem again, I'll just let him out for a few days. I've never had a problem since Coincidence? I think not!

Scarred ...
You need better pain medicine. 8-10. Terrible.
Hope you feel better
Pam

Just a note to PaLady,
fyi
Our cat, Ofeelya Finefurski cost $70 a month.

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MEDICAL CONDITIONS

Osteoarthritis all levels of spine right down to Coccyx,Spondilytis,Myofascial Pain
Fibromyalgia,Bulging Discs,Spinal Stenosis,Scoliosis,Osteopenia,Chronic Constipation
Carpel Tunel Syndrome, Attention Deficit Disorder,
Depression & Anxiety

Methadone for Pain, Xanax for Anxiety, and more, of course.

Thank you all for all of your wonderful replies. It is nice to know that I am not the only one going through this Holiday alone feeling like this. I'm usually the one in the house that keeps the holiday traditions going but this year I am so ready to take down the tree and call it a year and that really bugs me pretty bad. Alike to you PA I have been listening to the news of the economy and how horrible it is getting for people to make it through and being so sensitive to people's feelings I think it is extra hard for me to adjust to all of this. I see people losing their homes and going without food and presents and it really bothers me more and more each passing year.

My son is struggling and now has decided to move home and not that we cannot support another two mouths in this house but I have to wonder if the strain of the economics has forced him to make this choice. It's so hard to watch him beg for money he's so proud and doesn't want to ask but mom and dad don't mind when we have it. With the new job we have found that things are a bit better financially then they were back home so its nice that we can help him when he needs us the most and that makes me feel a bit better.

I so wish that things were better with my back so that I could do so much more for my family. I feel so out of touch with the whole world any more that I don't know how to handle things when they do come up. It's sad that us CPers have to deal with so much stress and crap in our lives while trying to deal with our every day struggles and not one doctor is willing to look at our pain in a real way. They just say "gee we will give you this medication or do this test." and leave it at that. I know the medications are helping and the only way we can deal with the pain but gosh how much can we take before it starts to affect the whole system?

Pam: Unfortunately an 8 is a good day for me and they have me on the most pain medications that they can put me on. I cannot take the patch because I am allergic to the glue that they use to stick it on. Even using a inhaler does not help to counteract the hives that I get with the patch. Plus I get real bad hallucinations and my skin crawls with that as well so they have taken me off of it. Some other medications I am allergic to as well and so they have decided to keep me on the medications I am on currently until we can get word from worker's comp to see if they will ok the stimulator. That process will be started in the next few weeks.

My most terrible day I am a 10. Yes I know this is high and there is not much I can do about it. It's not in my back that the pain is the worst....its the shooting pain that goes down my left and right legs that I would like to get rid of. My back I can deal with with a tylenol now and then. But my leg pain I cannot deal with on a daily basis. When I am sitting in a chair and I am getting shooting pains down my left leg it is so intense that I want to cry. I just want it to go away.

Anyway, it is 4:49 am here in KS and I've been awake since 1:30. No sleep for the pained ones eh? So I am going to lay here and relax and I'll post some more later.

Hugs and kisses

Scarred

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HEALTH ISSUES: Herniated discs at S-1-L5, L5-L4, L4-L3. Two level fusion (2000); one level fusion (2002); Revision at L4-L3 (2003). Diagnosed with Failed Back Syndrome, Permanent Nerve damage and Chronic Pain

Medications:

Kadian, Lexipro, Percocet, Temazapim, Lunista, and Robaxin.

Kara,

I'm sorry to hear that your ambien isn't helping much anymore. Why won't your doc prescribe you trazadone if you were prescribed it in the past & it has been helping you to sleep? My doc just started my on ambien CR today, although I'm not supposed to take it for a couple of days yet, since we fiddled around with a bunch of other meds today & he wants my system to adjust first.

Scarred,

So sorry that you aren't sleeping! Unfortunately, I'm in the same boat! Not sleeping is such a horrible feeling!

Skeye