Pain and the fear of it...

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   Posted 1/8/2009 12:06 AM (GMT -6)   
I have some new things happening to me on top of the old stuff and between the two they are pushing me into desperation....

I know there are other out there that have lots of pain or live in pain... and when they are not... they live in fear of it..

I just need to know that I am not the only one...

I have a sever case of Gastropreisecs well I not even sure how to spell the Fing thing.. but it means that my messages from my brain are broken when they reach the bowels... it has been 10 years.... unbelievable pain...
things have improved to the point where I can have some sort of life... with ups and downs like you all here...

but now there is this Prostatitis and it has been from September with it.... between the two life is ...

************was an option many years ago.... but now things are different...

****************so that Docs would have to go in and look at the bowels and prostate and Bladder...

When pain i controlled life is do able ************** I can only have so many at a time...

I don;t know what is worse the pain or the fear of it... both no one should have to live with...

I see the docs next week I hope something will be done...

Is there anyone else out there that questions why they were put here....

Discussion of suicide is prohibited.**********

Post Edited By Moderator (Lindaloo) : 1/7/2009 10:28:02 PM (GMT-7)

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   Posted 1/8/2009 1:37 AM (GMT -6)   
Dear FAtManGoBoom,
I think most all of us have questions about our purpose, especially when one links it with our health issues. But I couldn't help noticing you just helped another woman on the forum. You answered a question about a procedure I didn't know anything about (and I don't think anyone else had answered her question). And then along you come, on the same night, within a couple of threads of eachother. Coincidence? Hmm... interesting. Sometimes I have to look at those things in my life I don't understand, some accidental coindences like that and choose to believe there's some purpose and reason to go on regardless of how I might be feeling in the moment. It's a choice and sometimes a hard one.

I would encourage you to discuss these feelings more with your doctor, discuss your depression, and perhaps other ways to deliver the medication which they feel you'd have less chance of using for the wrong purpose - perhaps a patch system. Some people here have pumps, although I don't know if that's a possibility for you.

I do think that the fear of the pain is worse, and I know that sounds strange, but I realize a lot of times that my fear may be what's keeping me from doing something more than the actual pain. It's really an excellent topic you raise, and I hope you'll continue discussing it with us.

Should you have some serious depressive thoughts please remember the hotline:


It's free and open 24/7. Please, plesae use it if you need to, and maybe talking with a therapist who deals with chronic illness could be helpful. Talk with your doctor about referring you to someone if you don't already have one.

There's a lot of support here. Please keep using it, along with other resources.


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Date Joined Aug 2008
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   Posted 1/8/2009 3:05 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for your reply... it helps...

as far as suicide it is not an option for me now things have changed over the last many years....

It is more frustration with the docs... I think I have given the Canadian health care system to much credit... It takes so long for anything to get done... Yes it is free but there is a wait for almost everything...

I have asked in the past for exploratory surgery... When things were at there worst it was talked about it.... but things got a little better and it was taken off the menu sort of speak...

I just feel that sometimes... because it has been so long I am in a cycle with the docs....

I think the worst thing a doc said to me is steady as she goes...

also it does not help that the one medication that did so much has been removed off the shelves... Zelnorm

You can get it in the US but not Canada... in the US you need a special qualification to get it... here.... it is just a no...

We even looked at trying to get it in from other countries...

But I should look at the brighter side.... they are trying to get it back on the market.. so hope..... hopefully soon...

Talking has helped it is just a bad night in pain.... and i look forward to the time with out it....

Thanks PAlady
"May God give me light, or may he take what light I have left."

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   Posted 1/8/2009 7:00 PM (GMT -6)   
You're welcome. I guess frustration with the medical system isn't limited to any one country. The grass is always greener doesn't always apply, does it?

Wish I could tell you things in the U.S. are different and to come on down, but if you read enough of these threads you'll see it's a challenge for many of us. i hope we are going to see some positive changes in our health care sytem, but nothing's going to be perfect or come quickly.


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Date Joined Jul 2008
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   Posted 1/11/2009 1:32 AM (GMT -6)   
My pain is currently trreated but at the begining it took so long that the pain was unbeleivable and I thought only one way out but then they treated it and surprise surprise, in my head its still like its there, im terrified that it will come back I couldnt handle it , im scared my docs will retire ect and build up terrible scenarios,  I really am afraid it will come back once something happens with the meds, thats all that controls it and stops me doing something stupid.  sue2z

Fibromyalgia, ulcerative colonitus, arthritus, bi-polar
norspan patch, valium, prothiedon, lyrica

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