Savkelchr, I'm glad you are feeling somewhat better today and keeping in touch with your sponsor. You might ask your GI doc to prescribe something different for pain (narcotic) if the meds you are taking are not doing the job. Sometimes it takes trying different drugs, or combinations of drugs, to hit upon something that will work for you long-term. I used IV drugs in the 60s and have always been honest about that with my doctors. My PMD took 10 yrs. before she trusted me enough to give me more than a 30-day supply of pain meds (no refills.) There are doctors that specialize in pain management, and while you may need to go to a larger city to find one, it might be worthwhile.
Stress causes even more pain and makes it seem unbearable, so playing with the puppies is a great idea. I know that petting my cats helps my BP stay down.
Hang in there!
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