Hi everyone, this recovery just SUX. Im so fustrated and feeling so bad for my family! I had a terrible night last night and again woke up to cough, and got that extreeme pain that has been plagueing me. This morning, i got up to pee (sorry TMI) and had this horrible burning in the vaginal cuff (where a ton of stiches are). I have taken my pain meds, and am in bed now on the heating pad.
Today i am 3wks 4 days post op. Im soooooo tired of it all. I miss playing with my kids, i miss holding my 20mo old, i even miss cleaning my house! Now thats real pity if you ask me!!!!
I do atleast feel that at this point, i am doing the "two steps forward, one step back" thing, so atleast i know im healing....I just want this to end. My poor mother has been driving back and fourth (45min drive) every 3 days to have a day off at her home. She has been so great taking care of the kids, but i worry so much about
her, as she suffers chronic pain also and has already had a hip replaced, and she suffers from really bad arthritis. I worry that all she is doing here is going to hurt her.....I worry about
my husband trying to run his own business, then come home to have to help with kids dinner, baths, homework ect....he is exhausted and needs a break to. I feel like maybe i should suck it up and just spend a day doing my normal things, i just worry about
further injuring myself and ending up back in the hospital like last time.
Oh, i just don't know guys, i know im just venting and i know im just crying over spilled milk at this point, but it seems that i need to every few days....lol....i know my hormones are totally out of whack, and my HRT is much lower in estrogen than what my ovaries were putting out, and im having hot flashes, night sweats, mood swings, ect on top of all the physical healing.
anyways, im sorry for all the complaining, i am usually a pretty positive person, but boy, this one has really thrown me for a loop!
Jan. 2009, complete hysterectomy, diagnosed stage 4 endometriosis & adenomyosis (age 36)