Frances, Scarred, Palady, Pete, & Char, thank you all so much for your kind words, they mean the world to me.
Palady, I have not talked to any of my professors this semester, in fact I've been avoiding it despite knowing that I should go talk to them. I do have several who are very supportive and know me very well. I'm just not sure that there is anything anyone can do at this point. I don't think I can drop any classes like last semester either, as I'm only taking 2 because I'm doing an internship in a hospital for most of my credits, and one of those classes is associated with the internship. If I get through this semester at least I'll have a couple of months to decide where to go from there. I wish that there was a straightforward answer.
Pete, I've been to Columbia (and I refuse to ever go back there again, as I have never been so horribly treated by a doctor, even my mother, who was with me, was shocked at how horrible this guy & his slew of residents, fellows, etc, was to me). I'm working with a doc from Yale at the moment, although he is very closed minded & I think after I report back to his office within the next week, I'll be done with him. He isn't really willing to take any guesses or risks, he's basically told me that he's not sure what's going on and good luck. I'm thinking about flying out to Iowa over spring break to see another doc, but I'm not sure it will be worth it. I need to talk to my ophthalmologist first, it partly depends on what he is thinking is going on these days, because this guy is the closest thing I can find to a specialist on what we had been thinking was going on. Other than that, I'm stumped. I looked into going to John's Hopkins, but it didn't look like they dealt much with this type of thing, they seemed to be more into retinal problems. The really frustrating & problematic thing is that my eye looks decent on exam, but it's clearly not okay. The majority of the problems are occurring behind the eye itself & that area is really hard to visualize, and MRI's etc can only show so much detail - apparently not enough. I always get really upset every time I go see someone & they can't give me any answers. I need to learn not to get my hopes up.
Char, since all my pain is actually behind my eye, eye drops are unfortunately not usually of any help. Occasionally dilating my eye will give me a little relief, as my focusing muscles tend to go into spasm, and resting them for a while can help, but it usually helps more with vision than pain. I actually did dilate my eye on Sunday & it will likely remain dilated for the next two weeks, as in the dark, at 2 am, I could only find my long lasting drops, rather than the shorter acting one that I prefer. Unfortunately it didn't help at all, it's only made it even harder for me to read! Now I'm starting to regret my desperate decision! I do tend to get inflammation in my sclera for a few days every couple of months (I can almost predict when I'm going to get it, it's been like clockwork since the injury) & then steroid drops help, but that's the extent of it.