I'm really sorry if I said something that hurt you. That wasn't my intention. I'm sure it is tough with your job.
I can't recall whether I've mentioned this before, but maybe you could try Provigil to see if that helps your mind speed back up. I know my boss said I seemed much more alert
& together once I started on it. She figured I must have cut back on my pain meds & I didn't bother to correct her. As long as you don't need do to drug tests for your job, maybe that would do the trick.
I think PA is right to say that few people make a distinction. If it's not all positive -- rainbows & puppy dogs -- then it's probably going to be labeled as complaining. I remember how I used to always be bothered that it seemed like I was always there for other people but when I needed help, or just a shoulder to cry on, they wanted nothing to do with me. So I had a choice: adjust my expectations, or be angry & bitter at a whole lot of people all the time. I look at the "heroes" praised by our society & consider the value we place on people who stay positive, press ahead & seem unaffected by their illnesses (one example, and a great story, is "The Last Lecture"). In short, they are resilient. And people in the U.S. value that very much. I saw a study, don't remember where right now, about
societal roles & how people are not allowed to stay in the "sick" role for long periods of time or they end up being relabeled into the "outcast" role. For whatever reason, society rejects the notion of chronic illness. It may not be fair, it might not even be just, but it is the way it is.
So, here in Healing-Well-Land, I can be in that "sick" role & face reality, get support & trade ideas. But in the real world, I think that society expects its members to fuel the delusion that all is right with the world & that even in the face of adversity that we will all press on as if no such adversity exists. So I try to act accordingly. lol