You surely did NOT offend me....I guess it is from my mothers suicide that I look back and can see signs when I did not then, therfore I blame myself for not catching it, if you know what I mean. As far as my dad goes. I wish I had not pushed so hard for chemo because I wanted him to live so badly, and one round of chemo he was gone in a week.....I have much mental healing to do and see a pysch who seems to be helping but I would much appreciate the prayers and again you did not offend me in the least......
P.S Davy, I hope you are feeling some better tonight, sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!
Medical Problems: Chondromalacia Patellafoemoral Syndrome-Bilat Knees, Causes me alot of pain
Major Depressive Disorder/Anxiety/PTSD-My main problem I can't get a handle on
Fibro-Not treated with meds, streching, relaxtion techniques help me
Endometroisis/Adhesions Stage 4-Better after my total hysterectomy
ADD since childhood, treated with meds when in school, just started back on meds
2 Buldging Discs in my C-spine from car wreck, heating pad helps most times
Meds: Pristiq(depression) Ambien (sleep) Dexedrine (ADD) Clonozepam PRN (anxiety)
OTC-Womens One A Day Vitamin Glucosamine/Chondroitin and tons of Emu Cream for knee
A little history on me if interested:
I am a 34 year old mother of one beautiful daughter and wife of 14 years. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety, ADD and I also have endometriosis which I had a hysterectomy and has helped that out so much! I have PTSD from my mothers suicide in 2003. I am trying to get well, to get my head back to the place it was before my mothers suicide. I was always happy, outgoing, and active. Now, I am sad, tired, full of anxiety and very little drive to do anything. My father died May 2007 and my grandmother died Feb 15th 2009 so this has not been a very good past few years. I sometimes think if I could have done more, seen more signs, etc...I could have saved my mom and I have alot of guilt from that, and I took care of my father until the end and wish I could have saved him from cancer as well. I am a EMT-I and that is what I know to do, save others, but what good am I if I could not even save those that meant the most to me?