Hi everyone, been away for a little bit,things here have really been bad. I am now 5 1/2 wks post total abdominal hysterectomy and appendectomy. I am still recovering from that, and have been hit now with surgically induced medapause. I am a total MESS, the hot flashes are horrible, mood swings, uncontrollable crying, ect.
I am suppose to start back taking care of the kids tomarrow and i just don't know how im going to do it , I am soooo physcially tired.
I try so hard not to complain to my spouse, but after a talk we had today, i know he is just sick of all my CHRONIC everything (pain, ulcerative colitis, immune defiency). Of course he would never come out and say that, but did tell me that "someone" told him that "I don't know how u do it", meaning deal with me....i don't know if he feels this way to, or if this is just his way of patting his own back??? Im so emotional right now as my HRT is not working, and i just feel like he doesn't care about me anymore due to all these issues...He swares he's in it for the long run. I don't know if this feeling is just me trying to cope with everything or what.
I do see the Pm doc tuesday for the nerve block for the nerve that is hurting me in the groin area, so i hope that takes one problem off my plate. Anyways, i just really needed a place to vent and cry, yo all have been very good to me and i feel safe with you all. Thanks for reading...
Jan. 2009, complete hysterectomy, diagnosed stage 4 endometriosis & adenomyosis (age 36)
2003, dx moderate UC
2000, dx selective IGA deficiency w/ anti IGA antibodies
2000, dx Antipholipid Antibody Syndrome
1999-2009, chronic hemmoragic ovarian cysts, w/ partial ovary removal
1977, complete reconstruction of foot after lawnmower accident (chronic pain)
6mp 75mg, prednisone 40mg (just starting meds again)
percocet 5mg 3x day
potassium 3x day