PALady it is hard, and it is lonely, I smiled when you mentioned the chairs at your Goddaughters house, my older daughter doesn't have a comfortable chair in her whole house! And when I go there it is over 500 miles away so I have stay there, I can't lay flat, she does not have a recliner, so I bring foam wedges with me, but they are not comfortable, but better than nothing. I cannot wait to come back home! and I feel guilty about
not going to see her more often. And she would often comment about
that! Now she has not spoken to me since I told her I filed for devorce, she pressed me for details but I would not give her any, it is none of her business, she talks to her mom most every day. The middle of Jan is the last time we spoke, I have tried to call her but have only been able to leave messages which she doesn't return. My youngest daughter who is a Nurse at Mayos I frequently talk with, and she does have a recliner for when I go there and visit, she is also close to 500 miles away!. It is funny how differently they are taking this, but is also funny how differently they have accepted me and my disability and pain. One has and on hasn't! Yes PALady I share in your tears!
Fatherjohn you have hit the nail on the head "unmet expectations equal conflict" and CP causes many conflicts! It can and often does remind me that I am less of, and not the man than I used to be! That is such a bitter pill to swallow! And it does cause me pain, conflict, and guilt! and I often wonder if it wasn't the root cause of ending 34 years of marriage? You are right CP is an equal opportunity destroyer, that shows no compassion, no mercy, and no leniency. " It is what it is"
I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on full disability!
Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!)
Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV
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