Nurse2, I have not posted on your thread yet and tonight after reading through the entire thread I want to write and encourage you. I remember my first epidural. I went to the neursurgeons office and he said he wanted to try an epidural befor making a decision on surgery. He said he would have it scheduled. As I was walking out of the office, his nurse handed me a piece of paper and told me to head over to the place where the epidural was to be done. Not knowing any better, I went as directed. I had my 1o year old son with me. When I got to the surgery center, they took me back and began preping me and I thought I was just scheduling it. My son, was waiting for me all by himself and I did not even know what was happening. After the procedure was done, they brought my son in. It all seemed so rushed. As I was getting ready to leave, it came to my mind, now I get to drive 45 miles back home. What an insane day. That surgeon never touched me again. Now I know better. I am not sure why I shared this. but you mentioned in your first post "So many of you have so many more problems than I do that I feel quilty even saying all of this but I know that some of you have to know how I feel and "normal" people don't really have a clue when you talk about
these things." From all that I have read in your post, I think you are very normal. Youn seem to have a desire and compassion to help others and see that their needs are met. If only we had more normal people like you. I wish when I had my epidural, I would have ran into a normal person like you. You sound like an incrediable person.