This has been a long hard week for me but the weekend is finally here! I came home from work and just crashed, out like a light untill 7:00pm when my wife called and woke me from a deep REM sleep. Confused at first, I tried to get my self together as she was asking me what my plans were for the weekend. I told her that I just couldn't drive up to see her 4 hours away and then drive back Sunday, it would kill me and start off next week way behind on some much needed rest. She understood and told me she had way too many things to do up there still playing catch up from all the time she spent down here with me over the past couple of weeks. I told her I understood and hopefully we will somehow be together next weekend. Then the usual sadness, lonelyness and depression started to set in. NO!! Not this time! I'm not going to let it happen again dam it! I descided to come check up on my HWCP family and all the posts I haven't read lately because the little time I have when not working, sleeping or cleaning up after my sloppy self and doing laundry I've been writing about myself. Well, reading about Y'all made me realize how lucky I am! I'm not in such awful pain that I can't work or drive myself there. I still have a job and am making enough $$ to survive. I'm still married to a wonderful women who love and cares for me. I don't owe anyone any $$ and I still have some (not much) in the bank. I have two wonderful boys who beat the odds and are turning out to be great young men serving their country, something I never did. My 82 year old Mom is still with me and lives close by and is still fairly healthy and I can see her and help her often. I am one LUCKY S>O>Great women!! I almost wrote "B" but then thought, my Mom is no "B"!!! I cry and complain often and don't thank God enough for what I have. What a Dope w/ a capital "D"!!! I'm working on fixing all my health problems and still have fairly descent insurance. This was a New Years resolution / promiss I made to my family, to take better care of myself and stop crying about everything that hurts and do something about them and I am trying to do just that! And last but by no means least, I am lucky to have my WHCP family who is always here for me! You folks are the best! I have no where to go and nobody who wants to hear about my health problems. When I tell a friend or co-worker I end up in a pissing contest because they always have a pain or problem that is worse than mine but they are real men or women who can handle thier pain w/ out making a big deal about it! I know y'all know exactly what I'm talking about there!! But this place is like an Owassis in the dessert. Y'all get it and are so compassionet and understanding it just blows my mind and I am SO LUCKY to have You!!!! Thank You from the bottom of my Lucky heart!
Your Brother, Son, Father and Good Friend,
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections every 2weeks . 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, one on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis in port in Japan and the other on a Gator Freighter USS Bataan stationed in Norfolk, Va. I am one proud PaPa!