I went to the beach this last August, and I miss the sand in between my toes. The only problem was that to get from the camp sight to the beach you have to climb up a steep hill made of sand, and it was even steeper coming back from the beach, it hurt my legs and back so much that I only visited the beach a couple of times cause it was too much pain for me. It's times like that when I really hate myself for being in chronic pain, and it made me depressed that I couldn't run to the beach when my kids wanted me to, and they got upset at me. We even did alot of sight seeing i n the nearby towns, which was crowded, ad I remember wanting to cry cause my body hurt so much. We're suppose to go back this summer, I just hope I'm not in as much pain this summer, which of course is looking very doubtful. Life's just not fair!!! And I have those dreams all the time where the pain creeps into my dreams. I think it's my medication that causes me to have very very vivid and realistic dreams, where I can feel everything, it's creepy!!!
I have Migraines, Pancreatic Divisum, Severe lower back pain (possibly turned to arthiritis from lack of treatment), Fibromyalgia, Asthma, Depression w/Anxiety/panic, had glallbladder stones at 14yrs old, gallbladder removed at 15yrs old, 2 severe car accidents in '05
Meds: Suboxone 8mg 3xday for pain, Cymbalta 60mg @ night for depression & Fibro,
Lyrica @ night for Migraines and Fibro, Treximet as needed for Migraines,
Ventolin Albuterol Inhaler as needed for Asthma Attacks.
Chocolate as needed daily
Been on Diability since I was 22 for Migraines and chronic Pancreatitas but going to college Spring '09 to be a nurse
"Some days I just wish I was a missing person!"
"I'm not spoiled, I deserve all my stuff" -Happybunny