All My Good friends,
It's late for me an my wife was on the comp. all day again today. She is sleeping now, probably what I should be doing but I snuck out to write Y'all. It's been a week since my surgery and my last cig. was 8 days ago. I cant believe I made it this long! I had a better day niccotine wise today, at least I didn't loose control like yesterday. Thinking back to yesterday, I think I hit too many triggers and it caught up to me. I had a Dr. apt. w/ PA Doc who thought I had left the country or something! Then I picked up my 2 pairs for $74. glasses I had ordered before my surgery. Then stopped at my Mom's place, 82 yo and smokes like a chimney! Everytime I got in my truck and turned the key, I got that Nica -Jones really bad! Then at Mom's as much as she tried for me to not smoke, I told her to go ahead and blow the smoke at me! I have to learn to live w/ it. I spent 2 hours on the phone there checking on what looked like Identity theft on two of her accounts. I called everyone involve in the company and finally figured out what had happened, I hope! I wrote down every single person's name I talked to just in case, been there done that! Well when I got home around 3:00pm and hadn't eaten lunch, I was shaking, you know that awful feeling some of you probably get when you don't eat? I hate that, I'm a poster boy for Diabetes and am getting checked w/ a fasting blood test next week. Sorry about bouncing around! Back to the cigs, I think it all got to me and I came so close to smoking. Now I'll have to try not to let myself get behind the 8-ball like that again!
Thanks for the comforting words everyone, here are a couple quick replys> PA, you are such a doll! I wish I could use the patches or even the lozengas (I always used those on plane rides) But no such luck. I asked my Doc because I thought it was the low Oxegen from smoking caused the problems. He said true but the drug, nicotene also prevented the bones from growin so no to anything w/ nic in it! Tony, Yes, I know people who are not affected by the addiction of tobacco products, it just amazes me how they just stop and don't think twice. My wife was like that years ago and even now is not even close to being the junky that I am! She told me today that she is stopping by cutting down first. I could never do it that way but I believe she can, I hope!!! She only had 2 or 3 today. Chart, Thanks> I did ice it a couple times today but it didn't help. I am going to call the Doc tomorrow AM if it's still swollen then. Lindaloo!! I love your name! Oh yes, I can relate to the food thing! I most sertainly have a big problem w/ food and I'm pretty sure it's the same type of mind control type of addiction as tobbaco only w/o the drug part. When Poeple who never smoked ask me why I can't just stop, I explain it like this. We as humans have certain things that we do everyday as a part of living. We sleep, we eat, we talk, we have sex(well used to?), we love, and some other smaller things. So try taking away one of the biggies I just listed! To a smoker, smoking is higher on the list that eating & sleeping most of the time for me anyway. Get the picture? Take one of those things away from you all of a sudden and how would you feel?It's such a big part of my living and add to that the withdraw which kicks in after only an hour or so!!! My lungs feel like your stomac does when you haven't eaten for a day or more, just dying for the smoke to fill this hunger like feeling they get. Sometimes they feel like they are going to just stop working if I don't get a cig soon! W.B. Patti & Bluejet thanks for the kind words of encouragement, I'm trying to play it cool, like my boy Cool Hand Luke!
Good night all and big hugz from a tobacco free Florida?
Your "Cool Boy" Friend,
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections every 2weeks . 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, one on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis in port in Japan and the other on a Gator Freighter USS Bataan stationed in Norfolk, Va. I am one proud PaPa!