When you feel like hiding and don't want to bother anyone, come here and post, we are all here to listen and support you! Like PALady said don't worry about
having the right words, you will find the folks here are warm and compassionate, and understanding, there are some very good people here and I can't stress that enough! Anyway you are right it isn't good to hold things in, it can often just make things worse especially your CP. Do you have a counselor or clergy or someone you can talk with? If not that might be something worth trying to check into.
I wish you the Best
I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on ful disalbility!
Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!)
Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV