LLPLUV you know that your mother is like a majority of nurses, there is something in them that makes them that way. They will take care of others and not them selves, do as I say not as I do type of thing. That is just the way it is, I am sorry that she passed away at such a young age, you must also have the "nursing gene" in you, if so, it will do no good to try and tell you to stop caring for others! But just the same if you do want to continue to take care of others whether it be in your family or your friends, you must start taking better care of yourself! It is hard to let go and accept the fact that you need support. But it is something that you do need to do.
You know LLPLUV there is no shame in having to take pain meds, you didn't ask to have all those problems, pain meds are like any other type of medication, you take meds to control high Blood pressure, you take meds to control diabetes, and you take meds to control pain. Nothing more and nothing less! It is just a medication to keep a medical condition under control!
Be good to your self!
I'm Retired USAF, went back to school and became an RN, and now am on ful disalbility!
Degenerative Disc (affecting mostly the thorasic disc but all levels involved), C6/7 laminectomy/diskectomy& fusion, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!)
Medications: Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV