I guess alot of you know me by now and what I've been up to for the past serveral months. Something is happeneing to me that I'm not sure I fully expected. As you may or may not know, a little over a week ago I had a cervical fusion along w/ some other skillful vertabrae cutting, grinding and sculpting by a Wiskid Neurosurgeon who day by day I think just outdid himself inside my neck! I just can't believe how much pain has vanished from my entire upper left side. I'm truely amazed! With that being said, now other old friends have returned who haven't missed at all and I'm not at all glad to see or feel again! Last night while I was trying to cook dinner, my lower lombar area hurt so bad, the stabing, burning and those old electric charges running down my legs just like the old days! I had to go sit down about 10 times while cooking as I felt if I didn't, I would have buckled and dropped right there. Then I woke up at 3:00am this morning and my left knee was on fire and throbbing w/ pain and having that wierd sensation that always means there's fluid in it. I also have an pain in my back under my right shoulder blade, my two boys used to call it my spot years ago when they were little kids. I would ask them to rub it or even punch it for me sometimes. This old friend>NOT also showed up this morning with a vengance stabing me unmercively in the back like a true friend>NOT which is just driving me crazy right now while trying to type. My rotted out left hip socket which needs to be replaced is also pounding away w/ it's dull but strong base line beat of pain. What the hell is going on? I feel like a Blues Band of Pain! Is all this in my mind? Do I miss having all the pain in my neck so I'm unconciusly calling in these old friends to join the party? My wife has been so carring and understanding and is so exstatic over the success in my neck so far, I can't start complaining about all these other old war injuries now. It would just destroy any hope or trust she's had for the last couple weeks! I don't usually take any pain meds this early but with these old friends returning I just might as they are beating the crap out of me! I believe that inactivity has played a role in this wave of old pains returning but all at once? It feels like they are all trying to play king of the hill of pain fighting to take today's top honors!! If I told anyone except All of Y'all about this, they would surely think I'm a crazy hypocondriac and at this point I'm questioning it myself? How could this be happening? Was the neck pain just so bad, it overwelmed the other pain that was there all along, I just didn't knowtice it? Is my brain playing tricks on me because CP has become such a part of my life that I unintentionally don't want it to leave? I am questioning my own sanity at this point! Heck, I'm going to go make a pot of coffee and take a pill. See Y'all later!
Call me Mr. Hypocondriac!
Your pittyful friend,
56 years old, Surgury, Radical Prostatectomy 8/20/03, PSA 6.6, Gleason 3 + 3 = 6, Adenocarcinoma extent (moderate) Stage & Margin:T2NOMX, No Metastases, Organ Confined, bone scan: Neg. 3 1/2 years of depression after surgery prior to Hypogonadizm DX, Testosterone Theropy> new 2/6/09> 400mg injections every 2weeks . 56 and so glad to still be here to see my two sons grow up to be fine young men. They are both serving in the US Navy, one on the aircraft carrier USS John Stennis in port in Japan and the other on a Gator Freighter USS Bataan stationed in Norfolk, Va. I am one proud PaPa!