Posted 4/6/2009 12:26 PM (GMT -6)
Thanks everyone for all the comments & support. I do know that all men need to release their feelings & vent negative emotions for health reasons, but I just am what I am. I have few close friends - to me, a friend is lifelong, someone that can count on me for help no matter the circumstance, and I do not make that judgment easily nor lightly. The friends I do have, though, I am able to share most anything with, and they provide me a "platform" to vent when I need it. I also have some strongly held beliefs, probably as a result of having them beaten into me at Quantico years back (lol), that a man shouldn't be too needy nor a whiner. I guess I could change, but I don't really want to. I need to be as functional as possible for my little girl, and if that means a bit more pain, I guess it is worth it. I just don't want to have her see me struggling or out of it - that I just cannot take. I guess I do it as much for myself as for her. So, I try to stay alert by going easy on the pain meds, and when what I do take isn't enough, I try to be stoic & remember that flare-ups eventually flare-down, so to speak. I'm not that hard-headed, don't get me wrong, for I do indeed take pain meds, which shows I can & do ask for help when I just can't take it anymore.