I am Lindaloo and one of the moderators of this Chronic Pain Forum of Healing Well along with Chutz, the other moderator. I just want to say welcome, but to also tell you how proud I am of the members of this forum. These people are the most caring, most intelligent, most supportive, most intuitive and just plain wonderful group of people anywhere in the world. You have really come to a good place. I am so glad you posted, but I am so sad for your plight.
Your history sounds very involved and very painful, but I hope that you will get some much needed help in the near future. No one should be facing a future of crying because they can't get out of bed for hours. That's not living and I only hope that somehow you can find a pain management team or physician that can help you improve your medication coverage and overall coping skills with the pain. I hate --absolutely hate-- to hear of someone suffering like you are on a day to day basis in so much pain.
First of all, I send gentle hugs your way and secondly, I send you the strongest prayers for a better outcome. And third, I offer you my buddies, my pals, who have already welcomed you so graciously and
opening. Listen to them, There is a wealth of experience and understanding here. At the very least you have a shoulder to lean on during your worst moments --someone who will listen and offer support.
Please keep posting. I am so glad you are here. I look forward to getting to know you and you getting to know us as well.
Moderator Chronic Pain
Believe in yourself. Be kind to fellow humans and animals. Take time to smell the flowers and the coffee.
And by all means, when you are down, ask me for help. I will be there.