We'll be here for you as long as you need us.
I understand what it's like to try to work and feel like you have nothing left. I'm there too. And also barely scraping by on the bills - some months not making them all. Do you go to a Pain Management Clinic? Mine has a neuropsychiatrist on staff, and seeing him is part of the multiple therapies (medical, physical, emotional, etc...) approach they take. It actually costs me less to go see him than it does to see the PM or even to refill some of my script
s! You might check with your insurance to see if you have coverage. For mine, the neuropsych fits under a different category than a traditional counselor, so it goes under the medical deductible. My back usually flares several times a year badly enough to land me in the hospital for a protracted stay, and after the first one of those I've usually met the deductible (well, not paid
, but owe
) and then all the visits are covered.
I wish you the best with your surgery. I'll be thinking of you on the day before & of. I had surgery this year too (not related to my back issue), and also had to work right up to the day before. I live alone, and no one else knew what was going on - I didn't tell my employer either - I took vacation days for recovery. I still remember racing home over the lunch hour to take the "cocktail" prescribed to clear the pipes & such
I managed to keep it down for about
15 minutes before it all came back up, but that was long enough for it to do its thing...
After the rather explosive and not so pleasant, but just-as-advertised result of the treatment was finally over, I managed to compose myself and somehow made it back out the door to the office to finish the work day. I still can't believe I did that! LOL I spent most of that afternoon trying to keep my stomach from rumbling and hoping I wouldn't hurl or have to run to the bathroom for other yucky reasons!
But I made it! If it helps, you can picture how silly I probably looked and laugh a bit at me to take your mind off things!
Keep us posted as you can. We'll be thinking of you.
Post Edited (ryand) : 4/11/2009 11:25:35 PM (GMT-6)